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devotion April 28, 2018

 

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For the past month I have been experiencing feelings come over me of being unwanted and not valued by others. The feelings wash over me. I will be happy and involved one minute and then “whoosh” feel unwanted and unaccepted the next. The feelings are powerful and bring tears to my eyes and an ache in my belly.  I began to seek the Lord about these feelings and believe He has given me a word of knowledge for rejection. I was praying and saw myself standing outside a basketball court in the city. My friends and family were playing ball. They were laughing and tossing the ball back and forth. I was standing with my face pressed against the fence, longing to be included. I turned and Jesus, the Man of sorrows, the One acquainted with bitterest grief, was sitting on a bench behind me. I sat with Him. He placed His hand on my shoulder and encouraged me to release my feelings. I began to blow them out through my mouth. They appeared in front of me as a big soap bubble. The bubble looked blue and sad. I handed it to Jesus. He took the blue bubble up to His mouth and blew into it. It changed into gold. He handed it back to me and I felt happy and warm. In my hands the ball became a golden basketball. I then saw myself playing ball with my friends with the golden ball. Jesus joined us and I set Him up for an alley oop! He swiftly dunked the golden ball and we all ran to give Him high 5’s.

Last night I was at my children’s track meet with my husband. I began to feel the feelings of rejection. I took a moment to close my eyes and imagine blowing the feelings out into the blue bubble and handing them to Jesus. I then received His acceptance as He blew His golden breath back to me. I then was able to interact with others without putting the pressure to accept me on them.  “You see, long ago, even before God made the world, He chose us to be His very own through what Christ would do for us; He decided to make us holy in His eyes, without a single fault. We stand before Him covered in His love. He planned to adopt us into His family by sending Jesus to die for us. We have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.  In this adoption we, become a part of the body of Christ and though we are many parts of His body, we are vitally joined to one another.”  We are accepted and we belong.

If you have experienced rejection from family or friends, from your church, I want to release to you healing and acceptance in Jesus’ Name.

Romans 8:10 “Now Christ lives his life in you! And even though your body may be dead because of the effects of sin, his life-giving Spirit imparts life to you because you are fully accepted by God.”

Romans 8:15 “For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.”

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devotion Dec 7, 2017

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So many speak of Me without seeing Me. They speak of times others have seen Me, but they close their hearts to really knowing Me. They take what was given in the past and make a lifestyle around it of traditions and requirements. They keep Me out because they have all they can manage and they fear not being in control. But I am alive and My word is living and active. I have called you to a deeper place with Me. A place of communion with My Spirit, where you see Me and know My heart, where you allow Me to flood over you. A flood is not something you control. But I promise you will never regret allowing Me to flood over you, but those who have kept Me at bay, will regret it. When the Day comes, they will consider all things a loss compared to knowing Me. But you, who have allowed Me to flood your being, will greatly rejoice. Even now, you rejoice for I will cause you to see, to have visions and revelations, discernment and foresight. It pleases Me that you believe that I am and that I reward those who seek Me, and that you delight in Me.

2 Kings 6:17 Then Elisha prayed, “Lord, please open his eyes and let him see.” so the Lord opened the servant’s eyes.

John 5:19 Then Jesus replied, “I assure you: The Son is not able to do anything on His own, but only what He sees the Father doing. For whatever the Father does, the Son also does these things in the same way.”

Philippians 3:10 My goal is to know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death, assuming that I will somehow reach the resurrection from among the dead.

Devotion Oct 23, 2017

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Do you believe Me?  Do you know that I have good planned for you?  Do you believe that I Am God?  Why is your soul downcast?  Put your hope in Me.  You will yet praise Me. Open up your heart and believe Me.  You have three choices, three voices speak: My Voice, your own voice and the voice of the enemy.  I speak life to you.  The enemy speaks death to you.  Your voice speaks the agreement you make with either life or death.  Choose life, that you may live and speak LIFE, even when your feelings feel so dead.  The power of your words in agreement with Mine, are more powerful than your feelings.  I speak peace to you today.  In this peace, take a moment to look at your thoughts.  Seek to identify with My life in them.  I am in you and I will help you. Be still and know that I am God.

Psalm 46: (NLT)  God is our refuge and strength, a tested help in times of trouble.  And so we need not fear even if the world blows up and the mountains crumble into the sea.  Let the oceans roar and foam; let the mountains tremble!

 

devotion August 28, 2017

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I have been aware of the rejection and loss in your life. I have felt the hurts and know of the scars you have received. I have seen you shattered to pieces. I am aware of every single piece, every fragment of your being. I have watched you rise up, in your strength and say in your heart “I will do whatever it takes to never have to experience such rejection again. I will survive!” Instead of following Me, you allow your fears to direct your heart.  You may not even be aware of this because the survival instinct is so powerful. I love you with an everlasting love. I am your Creator. I am calling you back from your grief. O shattered one. I will rebuild you with precious jewels. I have carried your rejections and loss. I was struck down and abandoned. But through the offering of My life you may live.  It is My joy to see you smile. I rejoice over you, My child. Come to Me and drink from My fountain. Give yourself to Me and let go of your survival. I am Life and I will give you unfailing love. You will no longer live in shame, disgrace or sorrow because I am your Husband, your Redeemer.

Isaiah 54, 55

devotion May 9, 2017

 

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I’ve watched my children struggle in their own creation of reality. To prefer the things their minds create, rather than know the truth.  But you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. Be careful to know My word and not rely on your own understanding, because My ways are just so much higher than yours. People will not easily influence you with their charismatic arguments, when you have surrendered your way to Me. There is a way that seems right, but in the end it leads to death. When you have committed your ways to Me, then you can trust that I will lead you to life! My way may seem like death, as it is a dying to the old and a resurrecting to the new but there is hope in it.  The walk I ask of you is not easy. It is one of denying yourself daily, picking up your cross and following after Me. But I am always with you, and I my reward is well worth your struggle.

Romans 8:18 [ From Suffering to Glory ] For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

Luke 9 23 Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me. 24 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. 25 For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost?

devotion April 12, 2017

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See to it that you are not taken captive by the deceitfulness of sin, which so easily entangles. There are things that attempt to lure you away from your devotion to Me. Things that are good for food and pleasing to your eyes, even things you do in service to Me. I don’t want you conformed to this world. I want your mind transformed and renewed so that you may know what My perfect will is. Ask of Me and I will give you eyes that see and ears that hear what My Spirit says. I want you to consider My Kingdom coming as more important. As you make this decision, this consideration, you are counting  or considering yourself dead to sin but alive to Me.

Luke 9:23 Then He said to them all, “If anyone wants to come with Me, he must deny himself, take up his cross daily, and follow Me.

Luke 9:24 For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his live because of Me will save it.

devotion Feb 24th, 2017

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I am about to shoot you into newness. I have been preparing you through the things you have experienced and come through. I see you in a cannon! A human cannonball with a dramatic flaming cape, catapulted into your future. You are wearing My joy and the flames of My love. Let your faith arise now, and believe Me for the greater things. I am not pleased by one who shrinks back and settles.  You know I have plans for you for good, not to harm you. The enemy will shoot his arrows, but they will not penetrate your shield of faith. I have prayed for you. I am releasing over you now a courage greater than you have yet known. You will not fail. Set your heart now as flint to do my will and know that you will not be ashamed.

Isaiah 50:7 For the Lord God will help me; therefore shall I not be confounded: therefore have I set my face like a flint, and I know that I shall not be ashamed.